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ɯɐɥɐɹƃ llıʍ ([personal profile] badwill) wrote in [community profile] sadomasochism2014-01-30 03:39 pm

wтғ → (an open mirror-style post)





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i'll write you some fuck awesome mirror!verse shit where everything's backwards.
be prepared to wait a while

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Edited 2014-02-25 19:01 (UTC)
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[personal profile] opines 2014-03-06 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she's more than aware that this is bad for her - but she's also aware of how her mind works. she doesn't have any idea of control and she can't feel anything halves; it all hits her at once, like an almighty storm and she's lost in the middle of the vortex, trying to fight her way that. she's never been able to measure her feelings, or hide them, and in her profession? that could be crippling. it certainly had been to the relationships in her life, and her professionalism. if she didn't do something about it, the storm would grow louder and louder until she did something completely unforgivable .. and the relationship would be lost.

right now, it was screaming in her ears, a mix of different emotions - fear, anger, hurt, annoyance - nothing that she could control, nothing that she could keep from affecting her behavior. she needed to quiet it, she needed just a moment of peace so that she could breathe and try and put her life in order.

maybe that was why she'd come here. she'd figured out early on that there were ways to silence the howling; this was one of them. she'd never ventured so far as to disturb will graham on his own turf, but things had never been this bad. she'd never been in this much need of some peace and quiet. so she'd come, and as her back hit the wooden panels hard enough to bruise, she knew she'd made a good decision, even if it was the wrong one.

the moment his teeth dig into her skin, her mind goes completely blank, pain and pleasure overriding the vortex of feelings that threatened to overwhelm her. there isn't any chance to feel anything - she can only react, gasping in a mixture of surprise and pain at the sensations washing over her.. her hair pulled, lips throbbing lightly, every single inch of her skin where he touches her screaming a protest, screaming that it was too much, too fast, too painful.

but for the first time in days, she could think. she didn't have to worry about reaction and feeling; all she had to do was act. and she could do that, despite his slamming her back against the wall when she tries to reach for his shirt, attempting to maintain some amount of agency.

she follows him into the bedroom, not surprised at the way things are moving quickly. was this punishment for coming all the way out here when he'd made his desire for solitude known? did she really deserve to be punished when if she really thought about it, she was using him for what he could give her, despite the fact that he was one of the only ones who could do it? just the brief lapse where they aren't touching has her thinking again, and that scares her. she's glad when he lands on top of her, glad when he tugs her pantyhose down along with her panties, glad that he's touching her again with a clear goal in mind.

she's ready enough for perhaps one finger, but two has her groaning and arching her back, legs tugging against the makeshift bonds that he's put her in, failing to kick them off. it hurts, it hurts, and it doesn't at the same time; it isn't until his fingers curl that she digs her nails into his back, heedless at the damage she might be causing, a shocked moan muffled by his curls.

her hands are all over his back, scrambling, trying to pull his shirt off and getting distracted by the circling of his thumb, her legs shuddering with each new circle, fingers working inside her. she finally succeeds to a certain extent when she works his shirt up to his elbows, before giving up and bucking underneath him, clenching his shoulders. ]


God... [ her twisting becomes more desperate with each movement, and she silences any further remarks about higher powers by nipping at his neck, sucking hard just below the line of his jaw, wanting to do something with the brief moments of clarity that he offered. ]